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Your Lips Like Sugar, You Lips Like Shaker Fries!

2009-08-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

Moved!

2008-01-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

Don't find me here anymore

I've moved!

So long my dear blog. =)

I need some motivation. Maybe ALOT!

2008-01-02T15:05:00.000+08:00

It's only the first day of school and i'm already demoralised. haizz.
I'm disappointed with myself.
Come on! What happen seh ana!

I totally need motivation. ergghh!
Pharmaco, NS2, NS1, NSL, NR.
I need a break from all this.
I can't even concentrate! I have to stick to my resolution.
I need the upmost effort as i'm not bright.
I need to keep on studying. =(

I guess i have to stop going out, chatting, blogging and having too much fun at school.
I better just focus.
It's risky enough this time round, i don't have to wait for next year.

It's the end of 2007

2008-01-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it's already 2008.
The year went by extremely, without me knowing, very fast.
I guess i was too busy making mysellf busy that i actually didn't realise that it has ended.

2007 was the year that i learnt friendship is the most important thing in life and not LOVE as i've survived more than a year without love.
Even though i went out with a few guys, i didn't stick to any one of them.
The reason was mainly because i focused on just getting to know people.
By going out with them, i got to know different people with different characters, different feelings and different views of love.

I just wished for a better year ahead and maybe to be given a chance.
I just want to make my parents proud, to become a passionate nurse. =)

I'm not hoping for love to come.
It's alright if i don't get one.
I'm just happy that friends are here by my side all the time.
And the people i'm refering to are my BESTIES! You know who you are. =)
Thanks for everything.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Undescribable

2007-12-31T10:27:00.000+08:00

As promised, here are the pictures!

Went out with Indera yesterday after work. To Marina we went and walked and walked and bought pretzels at Suntec. Sat there, talked, walked back to esplanade to relax there. It was like really chilling lah yesterday. Bus ride home. Thanks to my mouth, i was shivering on the bus. bleargh! I had fun ok! =D

School's starting soon!

2007-12-29T10:27:00.000+08:00

Wow! Finally attachment has ended and i'm satisfied with my grade. =)

Anyways, went out with the missys on Monday. Initially, we wanted to catch a movie but all the tickets in Vivo are selling fast so we were afraid that we'll have to separate. Therefore, decided not to watch. Had the craziest idea to just go down to Sentosa. So, took the monorail. haha! It was me and Zuli's first ride since the thing was built. Shhh! So outdated can.
Then, all of was wanted to try the skyride and luge but since i was wearing skirt, decided to just take the skyride. So fun ok! Just that the distance was so short lah. =S I paid 5bux for just a short ride. Ape seh! Took lots of pictures but still haven't got them from Fyza so i'll post the pictures when i get them ok?

Since yesterday was the last day of attachments, met up with my besties. =)
Finally bought a Converse shoe like after so long. haha.
And i spent almost 70bux yesterday i think. Shoe+Hair products+++. heh!
But i'm satisfied cos i've got all the things i wanted after so long.

Since i'm working 3-11pm today, i won't get to go to my class bbq. I'm really sorry friends.
Hmm. I thought chalet was still on but then they changed to bbq only. Tak paham.
Enjoy yourselves ok?! and see you when school reopens(in like just a few days)

Seems like i'm gonna stay home for New Year. Dad don't allow me to go out as he won't be at home. He's afraid that something might happen. Baru ingat nak planning2. hmm.
It's ok i'm taking it positively.

HAPPY WEEKENDS PEOPLE!!!! ^_^

Parden me.

2007-12-22T09:52:00.000+08:00

i just feel like blogging BUT i don't know what to blog about since i've nothing to share.

Anyway, i think i'm gonna register for a Starhub prepaid card. It's as a back up whenever my msges from my M1 bill overshot. Most of my friends say Starhub prepaid is worth it and i think so too since whenever we top up we still get a certain number of free sms. I really need them lor! At least i only pay for subscription fee and every month maybe i just top up 10 for my prepaid. Then, i don't have to spend most of my pay on my bill! Basket right?

Next, i'm gonna buy contacts also today before work. i've been wearing the same contacts for 2 months eventhough i don't wear it everyday. I definitely don't want another infection. It'll be painful plus sufferring. heh!

AND! I'm gonna buy my $4.50 shoe for work and attachment. It's so much easier to wear that shoe. But i'm still considering whether to buy crocs or not cos i really think it's comfy and definitely good for our circulation. Chey chey, nurse suda bebual! =P

I feel like going to work earlier lah seh. I don't know why this past few days i'm like so hyper except for yesterday that is. hmm..

Which reminds me, I FAILED MY FREAKING PHARMACO! Erghhhhhhh!!!! Now i have to retest already. I really thought i could scrap through lah. haiz. Frustration ok. I studied but maybe i just don't understand the whole concept. Other modules, pull me up please! I don't wanna get my previous GPA, it's disappointing. =(

What a fun week i've had so far.

2007-12-20T08:51:00.000+08:00

Attachment this time round is cool. And how could i think in the beginning that i wouldn't enjoy this posting. bleargh! There's lots of opportunity in the ward that i'm in. It's like, you get to see everything. =) Great experience!

Went out after my Am shift on Tuesday to Vivo with Indera. It was his treat to watch Alvin and The Chipmunks! I tell you, i never regret it a wee bit! Cute banget lah seh! =P Besides, the company was heaven. Had a fun and relaxing time.
Was confused to go back by bus or train. haha! But in the end, decided on train. Encountered with someone rather weird but funny too. haha! This guy was singing all the way from Outram to Jurong East. If i know what he was singing maybe just MAYBE i would have joined him. hahhaah! Everyone was turning and laughing and he still kept on singing. WHAT AN ENTERTAINMENT! I said to Indera, maybe he thought this is like the advertisement for S'pore Idol! =P MEAN

Today's a PH so going to both my Grandma's house for gathering. Food galore i guess. But i don't think i can feed myself. I don't even feel hungry now. =)

SALAM AIDILADHA!

It's ending.. =(

2007-12-13T10:43:00.000+08:00

Went out with Ifa yesterday. Spent close to 70bux when i wasn't even suppose to spend on anything. I know i know, whenever i say that, i actually spend more than i'm suppose. I guess i should start saying, "i wanna spend". bleargh! -_-"

Bought Za compact powder, Victoria's Secret perfume, Missha mascara AND toothbrush. haha!
Ok, now i'm like broke again. I gotta stop spending lah. And i stil haven't bought my shoes which i've wanted since like FOREVER! Whenever i got the money i keep spending on other things. Ana Ana..........................

Today will somehow be the last of my free day cos after this i'll be working for the rest of the weekend and on monday attachment starts. BUT! I so love the schedule for this attachment. So relax lah! Seriously, i've never felt so happy with my roster before. heh! I'm free next Thursday afternoon to the next day cos it's PH and for the next coming week, i'll be free Monday afternoon to the nest day cos it's ANOTHER PH. Lek one corner! haha!
Therefore GIRLS!! We shall go out too. hee! And to think initially we won't be able to go out.
We'll always find the time. Kiter kan pandai. Awww.. heh!

2007-12-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

Someone i just got to know has a job offer.
Good news?
It's in Australia.
Good opportunity?
Well, he doesn't know whether he's going or not.

Well, i know that you're not gonna read this but i just wanna say that it's definitely something that you have to think carefully cos this kinda of chance won't come again. =)
I think you feel half-hearted to go. It's ok. Think carefully.
All the best.

I hate that i'm feeling this way again. urghh!
What's wrong seh Ana.
Someone save me from this.

Penang Trip

2007-12-05T08:33:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, i'm back from my trip. =)

It was all fun and relaxing.

Dad drove all the way. He was the only one driving cos Mom didn't let me drive (as usual right).

So, cos of that we had to have stops for i don't know how many. haha!

OTW to Penang

1st day
Got lost while searching for the apartment cos it was hidden somewhere. But once we reached the apartment everyone was beat so yeah, the bed was our first aim. Parents and youngest brother went out to get food at night. Nothing else cos we rested the whole night.

At the apartment

2nd day
Went out somewhere around noon to fetch Farhan from the bus terminal since he came with my uncle cos he had camp the previous day. After that, took a ferry to kampung. It was fun lah. The sceneries are just so nice. haizz.. How i wish i get to see all that everyday. Eases our mind from the hectic of S'pore.
Reached kampung, relaxed there. Everything looked so different. Mom said maybe cos the last i was there i was still a small kid so the feeling was different and everything looked so big then. =)
Walked around the "rice field". haha! That's what i called Padi field. And everyone laughed at me. bleargh! Sorry, i forgot to take a photo of Tok Wan's kampung. =( That's what i miss.

Masjid Terapong (On the sea)

The ferry that we took.

Ayam in the kampung. =) Try catching them. haha!

"Rice field" hahaha!

Relative's House.

3rd day

Went to the shopping mall there and i was surprised to see the prices of the things there. They are just the same as in S'pore! Some even cost more! Fuuhh! Penang is a tourist attraction that's why the prices are so high. Plus, the place where we stayed are all foreigners. That explains it.
Watched Enchanted with the family, of cos the price of movie tickets are still the same as in Johor. And the seats and sound system are way better. =) Like GV or Cathay in S'pore.

4th day
Checked out from the apartment and headed to kampung again to meet the relatives before going off. Had fresh Nasi Ayam. I called it fresh cos everything is fresh. The chicken, the vegetables. haha! My relatives even get fruits from the trees for us. Papaya, coconut and even bananas which my parents fit into the car to bring back to S'pore. haha!
After that, we made our way to Leburaya! It felt faster driving back cos Dad was racing for time as he was still not tired. We reached home 3am on Tuesday. =)

Checking out. Look at our rooms! So big. heh!

Goodbye Penang! And Hello Home Sweet Home! =D

Ok rakan-rakanku, ku sudah pun mengupdate! Tak kasi aku chance langsong. Lagi-lagi Zuli. Kasilah aku rest kalau yer pon. =P

Heh! Miss you all! We go out soon! Tomorrow! haha.

I feel like a bird flying in the morning sky!

2007-11-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

haha ok crap!
Basically, I'M DONE WITH COMMON TEST!
I think the only paper i screwed up is my Pharmaco, i felt like crying after that (and note! it's only CT). But i think i won't do well on the others also. It's ok, it's over now.

So, say hello to PENANG! heh!
I'm not as excited to go as what i felt last week. I don;t know why. haha
Hopefully it would be fun as well as relaxing. I need the relaxation from all the school stuff and work of cos.

I'm gonna miss alot of people seh! My BESTIES, POLY GF, COLLEAGUES!! haizz.
I'll be reaching S'pore on Monday i guess. =)
Till then, wait up for my next entry! hehs!

HAPPY WEEKENDS PEOPLE~!!!

Bottled

2007-11-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

I know i should be studying at this very moment but pardon me cos i can't take this anymore.

Kalau nak ungkitkan semua yang dia lakukan, pikir balik apa yang sudah dia lakukan untuk kau, untuk KAMI semua!
Kenapa otak kau itu tidak seperti orang dewasa dan matang.
Kalau nak diharapkan umur sahaja yang tua tetapi pikiran sengkek, aku paham mengapa anak kau pon sama.
Ungkit lagi tentang BERAS, tentang BIL!
Inilah yang dinamakan anak TAK MENGENANG BUDI.
Sejak dilahirkan hingga kau dapat bekerja, KAHWIN LAGI!
Siapa yang jaga?
Kalau tak kerana BAPAK ISTERI KAU, KAU TAKKAN DAPAT RESTU!
Pikirlah wahai insan yang sudah tua.
Pedih hati bila mendengar semua yang telah kau lakukan.
Kau siapa? Nak lukakan hati Orang tua isteri kau!

I'm really disappointed to hear all this.
And it's definitely not the first time.
You always think you are the big shot! Well, think again!
If you want respect, then, GAIN IT!
Cos you ain't gonna get any respect from me.
Cos you don't even know how to respect my GRANDPARENTS (who are your WIFE'S PARENTS)
I soooooo wish you're readind my blog, but too bad you're not.
Cos i really wanna convey this to you!

"Bila seseorang itu ada didepan mata kita tidak melihatnya,
tetapi apabila dia sudah tiada kita kecewa kerana tidak dapat membahagiakannya"

I just hope i don't breakdown or blow up in front of all of you
I have a RIGHT to feel this way, cos they are my grandparents who took care of me
BERANI KAU LUKAKAN HATI MEREKA!
Mahu sahaja aku gelar kau, jantan tak mengenang budi.

Next week COMMON TEST!!

2007-11-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

I'm really panicking now. erghhh! Like everything the lecturer said, i don't know.
So much for bucking up lah eh ana! Stoop!

Ok, i better get to studying.
Anyways, Thursday is my practical test.
So far from what i've heard, those who had it yesterday got oral medication and IM injection.
Super easy lahh dey! Yang pandai2 pulak tuh dpt sng2! Kendendengs betol.
What am i going to get seh gini. =(

All the best to those having CT next week!!

We shall go through this together.

Let me have my emo time..

2007-11-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

I miss Dad like a whole lot.
He won't be home for a week.
I can't even survive when he works 24hrs, how am i to survive when he's not coming back for a week. Gosh!
I think i'm too close to him. =(
The last time he went for a long work was when i was in kindergarten. I didn't really know dates at the moment so i kept asking Mom when was he gonna be home. I still remember ok.

He called me earlier to ask how i was doing and i told him that a dreamt of him yesterday and couldn't sleep. And i got to know that Mom dreamt of him too. That's how close we are and Mom and I will always have the same dream and feelings. He love us more than he love himself. Ohhh.. sungguh menyedihkan..

Be back soon yar. And take good care of yourself! =) I just hope you're doing fine.
Who else gonna pamper me if he's not here.

When enjoyment leads to suffering. =P

2007-11-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

Ok, you might be wondering why the hell is my title like that, let me explain. =)

Went sheesha-ing with the nurses together with Raf and Zu on Friday at El-sheikh.

It went well at the beginning and the flavor was nice. =)

But after long, i felt giddy PLUS the atmosphere there wasn't helping. It was so stale, warm and stuffy. So i decided to take some nice air with Zuli since she was giddy too. The difference was that she managed to make herself vomit and i couldn't! So i was nauseating all the way. Rabak kan? Haiyo! Otw home i was like a drunkered. bleargh! Alhamdulillah i reached home safely.

Anyways, i'm lazy to type too much so pictures!!!!!!!!! hee!

I love my fellow nurses! Sheesha lagi yok! =D

CUTE BANGET KAN!!! =D I LOIKE!!

Nothing better to do.

2007-11-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

Since i'm not schooling today, my hand's so "gatal".
So, i change my background again.

This time i'm going pure black!!!!! Ya'll!!!!

Hahaha! Anyway, it's just for reading right? So makes no difference. =D

I'm so touched!

2007-11-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

David Sides.
OMG! This guy is so freaking good and talented.
I so miss playing piano. =(
Dad sold it away cos he thought i didn't wanna play with it anymore, when actually i was busy with o's at that time.

Anyways, listen to the song i've already put up from my profile.
It's nice and you can here that he's so devoted to playing the song.
It's as if he's in the song. hmmm.. I'm so in love. =)
I've even downloaded some of the tracks that he played.

What an entertainment.. Heh!

2007-11-13T13:09:00.000+08:00

First of all!!

Happy Birthday RAF!!!

My dear dear bestie is now legal lah!

Ok best! Come let's go.. haha!

This belo best friend of ours lost her fish purse for don't know how many hours with lots of clues and yet she didn't realised it. She only get to know bout it when she wanna get her ATM card. The weird thing was, she still looked so calm lahh sehhhh! ZULI ZULI.. Heran banget si gue! haha..

IM EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!!!! Dad bought me a new phone. (AGAIN! i know) hee! I like lahh! Sony ericsson W660i and the functions all are so for me can. hee! And the one's to testy the new phone sape lagi kan klau bkn rakan2 sekolah ku yang giler2.. hahaha! Tested during NSL. Kecoh! =) And Bing2 called me a pampered child. I'm not lah Bing2, just that my Dad love me. haha! ok LAME!

Npk nye mcm bsk tak jadi. Haizz.. Sedih banget si gue! Maybe in the end, me, Raf and Zu will meet. As usual. It's ok, we'll see how lah.. =)

Don't make me feel this way.

2007-11-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

I don't know how things can turn out this way.
I'm not ready, i've told you before.
And i prefer us to stay like this, as friends.
I don't think it's a good idea for us to move on from here cos i don't want things to get messy.
I'm sure there are many girls out there that you will like if you give them a chance.

I don't know what you see in me.
What is it that makes you love me?
Why is it that you kept asking me again and again for it?
What if i really can't make you happy?
What if i disappoint you at the end of the day?
I don't want you to sacrifice your feelings for all this.

From the moment i know you, all i could think of was us staying as friends.
Maybe even good friends.
But i've never hoped or ask for it to be more.

I hope you really understand and not just saying that you understand to make me feel better.
I don't want you to regret at the end of the day.
And i don't want to be guilty for that.
Enough of my guilt already.

Do understand.

Penat sih gue! =(

2007-11-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

I'm tired from working and schooling but of course i still find the time to have fun! heh!
Did insertion of Nasogastric tube yesterday and indwelling catheter today. Fyza tried to insert the NG for me but failed cos i have sinus problem therefore, my nostrils are smaller. Dangs! I really wasted to know how it felt like in my stomach. I actually cried when Fyza tried to push in the tube cos it was painful lah seh! hahs.

Anyways, indwelling catheter was easy mambo lah! Hahs. Mainly cos we've seen it done in the wards before so yeah. Here's a picture of it. DON"T WORRY! It's not a real patient. It's a DUMMY! heh!

Met up with Zu at CWP after school and was surprised to see her LIKE THIS!! (see below)
Semangat FAJAR kann? I know lah you miss Fajar so much! bluek! People were like looking at her lahh. PLUS! I notice this sec sch boy looking at her and when i told her, we laughed about it. LAME SIA ZU!!! =P

Meeting up with the BESTIES tomorrow! heeeeeeeee!!!! Suke banget!! =D

How "selenge" can i get?

2007-11-03T09:54:00.000+08:00

My super cute super cool thumbdrive is not with me now. I think i left it at the library after sending the NS1 report yesterday. Basket betol lahh! hmph. =( It's a good thing i already sent the report. If not, all of it will be gone for BAD! gosh!

Anyways, went out with Zuli and Ezzie yesterday. That explains the rush i guess. Went town to get Ezzie's long awaited stripey shawl. Sat outside Taka eating pretzel and chicken wrap, trying to "cuci mata" but to no avail. There were many "budak-budak kental" instead of guys our age. bleargh! Got bored so we decided to walk down to esplanade to slack there. We took the longest time ever to get there cos we were stopping here and also laughing at people (oops!). Was great fun lah! Only managed to reach esplanae like 30 mins after walking. haha! Sat there, chit chat, gossip gossip, story story, ngumpat-ngumpat till it was dark. OH! and there was pesta raya so the Raya mood was there. We sang along to the songs. Funny! hee!

Reached home at 11pm i think. =D But it was fun, away from projects, away from school, away from stress. Thanks lovelies!

Cinta amat sukar untuk dilafaskan. =)

Raya Outing with Sec Sch friends. BLAST!!

2007-10-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

Finally! i got hold of the pics! Cantek banget! heh! I miss everyone can?

Hopefully this Friday will turn out fine. =) Jumpe kamu sume2 lagi yahh... hee!

Sukar untukku memahami diriku.

Sukar juga untukku memahami kehendak mereka.

Feeling bad.

2007-10-31T01:32:00.000+08:00

This headache that has been going on since last week is driving me crazy. I can activate it just by doing simple stuffs like walking or whatsoever and it's damn disturbing cos i can't like overdo myself. I can even get headache during lectures and it's worst cos i can't concentrate. It extends all the way to my neck region. Erghh! I don't know what i should do to stop it or not to activate it at all. Maybe i should just see a doctor but what's delaying me is not that i'm scared(well, a bit lah) but it's mainly cos they'll give the same thing everytime. I'm really scared if it's like the worst case scenario, like tumor or what. SHIT! I'm running wild lah. =(

Anyways, will update on Raya outing with my fellow sec friends once i get hold of the pictures ok? I so miss them!! =D And going out with them was the simplest but yet the most FUN! Everyone has changed so much lah. Nvm, will upload the pictures maybe tomorrow so you can see. heh!

I slept since 8 to 12am due to headache. AND now i'm awake. bleargh!

End of relaxation.

2007-10-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

It's the end of our second week in school and i think it's quite fast cos i'm so not ready to face CT and all. Hmms. But i guess we should stop relaxing now and begin studying. =)

Was supposed to go out with Zu today but i got lazy and the day was sooo freaking hot and she had someone to accompany her to Bugis so i made a pass. Bleargh! Dress up for nothing. haha!

Was super hot lah today. Hopefully tomorrow will be windy and not raining cos we'll be going out for raya-ing. heh!

So, met Raf at Plaza after school and slacked and talked while waiting for her lecture to start. Bought a Ring file so hopefully i'll be twice as semangat as i already am. heh! =D

It takes a lot of courage to tell someone that you love them.

So, tell the person when you already have the courage.

Random!

Anyways, i can't wait for tomorrow can!!! hehe.. Hopefully everything will go on as planned.

Tired.

2007-10-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

School has been OK so far. But friends are GREAT! heh! =D

Project projects projects as usual. Like Ain said, "macam tak biasa pula ana". haha!

There's NS1 presentation tomorrow and i've just finished putting up all the slides together into one presentation. I think there's more adjustments in someone's slide. hurhur! Cos Ain stil have not send me her copy. CEPATAN AIN!! =p

Sometimes it makes me wonder whether they are nice the way they are or faking it.

Ramai juga lelaki-lelaki baik di dunia ini yer. =D

Last but not least! Meet spongebob!! An addition to my 5 pillows on my bed. heh! cosy sehh!!

I'm going to get sick soon...

2007-10-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

Bought Zen Neon 2 last two days. =D Finally, i have an mp3 now. heh!
Thanks Zu for accompanying me there. Eventhough i was totally tired from school since 8am to 5pm i still insisted on going. haha! I'm a happy happy girl.
Went Marina to watch Mr. Woodcock with the family yesterday. Mom got free tickets from her workplace so all of us get to watch. Coolness! =) The movie was great and funny lah. Dirty jokes.. haha

Anyways, going out with Ezzie tomorrow. She wanna shop till she drop i guess. So maybe it'll be a long day for me. haha.

School's fine so far. Projects pouring in as usual and of cos we were prepared for it since we're used to having projects on first week already. haizz.. No time to even warm up for school.=( Relax abit can lecturers? We're not robots! Bleargh!

It's a new beginning.

2007-10-15T11:07:00.000+08:00

Today will be the first day of 2nd yr 2nd sem. This will be the starting of a hectic sem for me.
But i'm gonna prepare myself for the end of year exam. No more slacking. No more going home late (rarely at least, unless it's studying).

I'm gonna study TILL the end and not study AT the end. Cos i've totally learnt my lesson from my 1st sem that i did AWFULLY BAD! i'm so disappointed with myself. I don't know how i dropped that bad. bleargh! So friends, give me encouragement and motivation aites! LOVE YOU ALL! =D

HAPPY SCHOOLING PEOPLE!!!!!!! ^_^

Shittish day!

2007-10-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

Wanna know what i mean?
I had diarrhea the whole of today. From the time i wake up till now. I can't even count the number of times i went to the toilet. haizz..

Plus! The CI wasn't helping by being naggy ok! Diarrhea + FON CI = Angry Ana! :S erghh!
Better rest now. I'm like dehydrated.. I kept drinking water since break fast earlier. I think i can even be water intoxicated! Ok, i know, Exagerating! bleargh!

New Look.

2007-10-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm done with this skin. It took me idk how long to find a picture that i like and to edit it. hmms..

Not really satisfied though. I think this skin won't last long.. hahaha! =P

Made choc cornflakes. YUMYUM!!!

Temptation right? haha. Menggode mann! =D

Crazy..

2007-10-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

If this goes on, i'm gonna get admitted to IMH soon.

Dangs! That CI just drives me crazy lah sehh!

Thank GOD there's Fee and Zim. They rock my attachment lahh! hee! =D

Ily girls!

Anyways, went Marina with my crazy besties. The one missing was syitah of cos. =(

Shopped a little. heh! Therapy lahh.. =D Bought brown pants, organizer for schooland what else i can't remember. Almost spent more than that but hmmm.. didn't had the mood to. hahaha!

After weeks of fasting.. hahaha! Penipu! =P

Misses.

I really need it.

It's just that i deny it all the time.

Cos i don't wanna get myself into it.

Misses.

I've awaken from the mist!

2007-09-29T09:32:00.000+08:00

Ok, long disappearance aye? hahaha! Blame it on attachments.

Anyways, went to break fast with my poly gf (except for ain, who suddenly semangat Hockey).

The girls planned to meet at bugis since it was nearest to KKH. So baek lah they all! hee!

BUT!! Sape jgk yg lambat eh? haha.. I waited for them till i fell asleep. So unglam! But it's ok, cos meeting them totally cheered up my boring day. heh!

Walked around Arab St in search of a place to break fast but in the end we settled for Banquet at Raffles Hosp. The bazaar at Arab St was super tempting, made us wanna buy everything. So, after breaking fast, Ezzie insisted on going sheesha-ing. haha! That girl uhh.. Still can persuade people. So yar, we went sheesha-ing too at Al-Tazzaq. Let the pictures do the talking lahh.. =D

I MISS SCHOOL!!! COS I MISS EVERYONE!!

And i actually had a dream of my friends yesterday. They are love lah.. =D

Coming to the third day of attachment.

2007-09-19T10:23:00.000+08:00

Ok, as most of you already know, i'm having attachment in KKH for this 2 weeks and then IMH for the other 2 weeks.

First day in Nursery was quite dull but the babies cheered me up. All of them are so cute can? hahs! I can't wait to have one of my own. oops! haha.. Yesterday, they were extra cute, i dky.

But sorry to say this, yesterday i saw the first ugly baby. I know very mean. It felt a bit weird cos some of my friends said there are ugly babies but i disagreed all this while till yesterday when i was feeding one and i realise that it wasn't really cute. haha.. i'm mean lahh!
Anyways, i'm like falling in love with one of the baby, so CUTE so CLEVER! hehs!
Next week, going to gyne ward 42. My friends there said the ward is damn boring. haha.. I guess it's cos we'll be doing normal bedside nursing. =)

However, i'm looking forward to my posting in IMH. Can't wait lah sehh.. hee! I'm sure it'll be funfunfun!!!

Selamat berpuasa kawan-kawanku. Today is like my official day. So lambat! Nonetheless, i get to fast. That's good news to me. =)

Happy Fasting Fellow friends and dearies. =)

2007-09-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Went to Vivo and Marina with Zu yesterday. =) Funfunfun! But it was my last chance to enjoy my holidays. =(

Anyways, here are the photos we took! heh!

Somebody please slap me.

2007-09-14T10:48:00.000+08:00

Remember when i said i'm gonna flung my exams. Well, that gut feeling now is a reality!
I flung my exams. My GPA is like SUPER LOW! I'm disappointed with myself!
Regretted not studying more.

I think i didn't have enough time to study. I really gotta buck up cos the next semester not gonna be easy. I'll have alot of tough modules to do. And i NEED to get better GPA. This sucks!

I'm gonna start studying more. I admit that i slacked the 1st semester but i didn't know i'll do this badly. Oh man! I'm like so disappointed with myself. I don't believe this. =(
I'm not gonna hooray hooray anymore unless it's holidays. So i'm gonna tell myself to studystudystudy!! Right from the start of school.
Make me stick to my words! Insyaallah, i'll do better next semester eventhough the modules will be tougher.

1.50am

2007-09-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

I seriously can't sleep. I slacked like the whole of today (or maybe it's yesterday).
I don't know what i'm thinking that's depriving me from sleeping. hmms..

I wanna go out tomorrow. So that i won't be a lazy bum! =)

I don't know what i think anymore.
Stop asking about it.
But thanks for saying that.
Cos it's making me realise that i have to "Stop it".

"Ku berikan emas, intan dan permata.
Bukan kaca, kilau, tiada berharga."

How i wish i never knew him..

2007-09-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

I was hallucinating.
I was hoping.
It wasn't true.

I'm just stupid. Fullstop.

Outdated!

2007-09-04T07:52:00.000+08:00

Ok, the last time i updated was like a week ago. I'm so outdated lah. It's not that i've not been doing anything but i'm just plain lazy to update. =) peace!

So, went to marina with Ezzie to watch Hairspray. Cool show! So cute lah.. haha..

The next day, which is a Friday, went East Coast with Zu since she said she was broke so we decided to have a picnic, only the two of us. haha! We ate and chilled. The wind was super strong and it's nice cos we were really relaxing. =) Ok, pictures. Lazy to type lahh.. haha!

Worked 12-11pm for both days on weekends. When i got home, my leg was aching and had headache due to the lack of sleep. bleargh!

Slacked at home the whole of yesterday. Sleep, eat, chat, watched tv, dvd and don't know what else. Been so long since i last stayed at home for the whole day. oops! Grandma came to meet me. =) I miss her so much. Somewhere around her eyebrows, she had a big bruise cos she fell down. Kesian seh. It's quite bad uhh.. =( No wonder i felt uneasy last week for a few days.

Anyways, working again today. =) With a new person i think. Ok, Have fun people! =D

Cooling Day..

2007-08-30T13:01:00.000+08:00

Was about to go out but it started raining heavily. Bleargh! =P
But! What i know is, it will be a cooling day today. Yahoo~!! hehs!

I love cool days, i love rain, i love wet weathers as long as i don't get wet.
Make sense? haha! Nvm, i still love rain even though it affects our initial plans.
We have to be flexible right? hehs!
Going out with dear Ezzie to watch Hairspray. =) loves!

Yippeeeeee~!!! What more can i ask for when i have great girlfriends! =D

2007-08-23T14:03:00.000+08:00

Exams finally over!! Jump of joy with me peoples! heh! Although the paper didn't satisfy us, we cheered each other up after school by enjoying our day with fun and laughter and definitely with our dear camera friend. We took lots and lots of pictures. heh! Fun lah can! =) I TOTALLY LOVE YOU GIRLS! School would be damn boring if it weren't for my girlfriends.. hehe

Celebrated Ezzie's 18th Birthday yesterday. But her birthday is today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!! =) Remember, you're legal now. heh! winks winks* =P Have a blasting 18th birthday yar! haha!

To sum it all up? I'm a happy happy girl! heh! =D

Cute~!!

2007-08-19T11:16:00.000+08:00

Went to my aunt's place yesterday to meet my niece and nephews.=)

They're really getting bigger and bigger except for my darling qorimah, she's still as small as ever, eventhough she's 3 this year. haha.. Cute lah she! She sticked to me all the way. Best!!

heh! cute like the bibik also. =P Ok, don't puke.. =D

Anyways, slept at 4 again yesterday. phew! I'm gonna get my pada eyes again soon! Plus, tomorrow's exams. haizz! It's ok, it'll be over soon.. =)

My phone is driving me crazy! Now, the screen is blank! So people, do understand if i never reply. =(

Btw, the photos from the fireworks are not gerek lah. So i shall not put them here. The pictures are so dark! hmmz.. plus, my brother's video skill err, not the very good. bleargh! When i see the videos i become giddy. LOLS!

Aper nie!!

2007-08-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i'm just frustrated with M1. haizz.. Now i can't use my handphone cos it says, "SIM card registration failed". haiz haiz haiz...

LOL. Ok, too much. On a much happier note, gonna watch the fireworks tonight with the family. Dad got the tickets to watch it from the floating platform. Cool kan! hee ^_^

My weekends is filled up and i'm so freaking nervous cos i'm still not ready for the exams. Currently studying NS3 and take note! I'm focusing on the SAQ only cos there's just to much to study.

Plus NS4 lagi WORST! It's not helping! sobsobs* =(

As for PAS, errr, let's just say it's going on well. Ok good! haha..

I love my life

I love my family

I love my friends

Basically, i love everything! heh! Life's good! =D

ACT CUTE!! BUROKS~!! =P

Cobaan!

2007-08-16T14:54:00.000+08:00

Studied NS4 with this girls on Tuesday. =) Of cos didn't really cover much. In the end, we gossiped during hour last our of studying and we went to have our meal at BK.

Studied with zu on Wednesday and surprisingly, i could really concentrate. =)Ate Ban Mian after that. I think it's my first time eating it. haha! Outdated! =P

The weather is just so nice to sleep and i can't get my freaking head to concentrate on studying! Ahhh!!! I'm freaking out already.
I have only two days to study to be exact, cos i'll be working on the weekends. Erghh! Should have asked for off! =(

And now, i feel like i shouldn't go for the fireworks festivals. It's making me feel guilty seh, cos i'm suppose to be studying. Furthermore, i'm not as lucky as my other friends who can study on thw weekends. Haizz.. Confusions, guilt, regrets!

2007-08-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

The movie was sweet.

The chocolate is sweet.

The evening was excellent.

^_^

Can anybody accompany me? =(

2007-08-13T10:24:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of the Study Week.

I feel like studying at the beach but i don't know who to go with cos evryone else is schooling.

I have the urge to go alone. haha! I think it's not bad to go alone too so that i can concentrate.

But! boring sih gue! like talking to myself like that.

My neck is still abit stiff but not like yesterday. I don't know how i can get it, maybe i stretched to much when i was sleeping. =) It's ok, it will get better.

WoW!!

2007-08-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

Overall, the day was fun cos it was spent with the besties. =)

What makes me disappointed is the fact that i felt as if i wasn't in Spore when we walked around City Hall cos it was packed with foreign workers. I was so BINGIT can! And they kept pushing.

Being me, i was worried that my besties would get hurt cos there was once that the "foreign workers" actualy fight with the group of Malay guys that got fed up cos the foreign workers were basically pushing their way lahh! Like HELLO PEOPLE! This is not like your country ok and people don't just push others to get to the front.

Since we were almost suffocating, i suggested to the rest that we should turn back, cos there wasn't any chance that we could get a good view of the fireworks from where we were standing. =(

Anyways, watched the parade from the big screen at padang then after that, we headed our way to Lot 1 to chill as usual and that's where we get all the fun. hee! No matter what we do we'll still have fun even if it doesn't have to be anything. Right girls?? I LOVE YOU ALL LAHH! ^_^

This was yesterday. Hahaha! Weird things we do when we're together. The coincidence was, all of us wore the exact same shirt.. See properly, we didn't plan lah ok. hahaha! =P

Anyways, tomorrow is NS4 presentation and my group is so not ready can! I haven't get everything from my group members so i can't compile. I'm left with another 2 parts. hmmz. Hopefully i get to finish them by tonight cos i don't want to be waking up early to do the compilation. =(

Patriotic Day!

2007-08-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PEOPLE!!!!!

IT'S A REDDY DAY TODAY FOR US!!

Relaxing day...

2007-08-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

Didn't work today cos was feeling unwell since the past few days and this morning it got worst.

So, went JB with the family to just relax and walk around and eat of course. Now i'm feeling totally blotted, like my stomach exploding soon. =)

Tomorrow's BCLS Practical Test and i'm like so freaking nervous. haizz..

I don't know what else to study basically because i've practised, just that, being me i'm always nervous even for the most littlest things in life. x)

Im so freaking relieved!!!

2007-08-04T13:35:00.000+08:00

I can't believe i've finished my ELAHA assignment. I really thought i wasn't able to finish it due to work. haha! BUT i did it people!! wooohooo! Now i can focus on BCLS Practical on Monday. SO SO nervous! x) haha

Anyways, I'm done with all the assignments and i'm left with 1 more projecy yhis coming Friday. I'm so happy can?! hee! I can finally relax for while and study for exams.. =)

I'm a happy girl

In a happy world

Life's fantastic

Btw, Dad already collected our weekend car so my family can go out together as one. hehe!

I'm working today, despite of feeling sickish. I took cold panadol since yesterday to fight my flu that is coming and i slept early yesterday to shoo off my body aches and seems that they work well. My flu is still here but i'm sure it won't get any worst.

I've been cheerful this past few days. Cool huh! I love my family, my dears in school and of cos my BESTIES whom i missed so so much. Meetups soon ok? I'm done with being busy. hehs!

Yours trully,

Yeahness~!!

2007-08-02T20:25:00.000+08:00

Finally i've bought a grey cardigan that i so wanted to buy. hee! =D
Im a happy girl now.. hehe! It's pretty lah can! ^_^

Anyways, bout the performance yesterday. It was kinda boring lah. I think maybe it's because of the hosts. They just don't attract the audience much, not like last year and i guess this year, a lot of things cocked up. haha! Well, nevertheless our batch won the first place again! Wonder how it'll be next year. hahks!

I'm glad that i got to know the truth.
I don't know what the hell i was thinking at that time.
Thanks alot! I've never felt so relieved in my life. =)

2007-07-27T08:23:00.000+08:00

How Girly Are You? Your Result: You are in between You like dresses but you don't mind getting down and dirty if it means fun.Pink might be your favorite but you enjoy rock such as Green Day And that's really cool!
You are a total girly girl!
Your not girly at all!
How Girly Are You? Make a Quiz

ok, this is funny. haha! i wonder if it's true. =)

Your score on this personality test was 61%

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Personality Quiz
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It's fast again

2007-07-26T19:43:00.000+08:00

=) Sent my lappy for reformatting. haha! cos it got infected by a virus yesterday when i downloaded something and i can't seem to remove it so yar, decided to just back up everything and reformat. Now, it's as good as new. I'm gonna refrain myself from downloading alot of things in my lappy (eventhough i know it's difficult cos my hands are so the very "gatal'!) haha.

Anyways, the day went well apart from the boring lecture. Everything wlse was fine. Spent the 3 hours break with relaxing. Coolness!

Tomorrow, school will be only 2 hours since there's no NSL. =) But gonna discuss debate for next week. =( I'm so nervous cos there's stil BCLS Theory next week. bleargh!

Uh oh!

2007-07-25T13:41:00.000+08:00

I'll be taking NSL Theory Paper in another about 2 and half hours and i'm still not prepared. =(

I skipped PAS and NS4 to study but i just can't seem to concentrate.

You shocked me when you ask me all those questions and insist that i tell the truth.
But now i'm relieved that you actually asked, cos now i know that actually you understand .
You knew about it all this while, just that you decided not to bring it up.
But i hope you won't tell, cos i'm really afraid.

I need a vacation!

2007-07-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

Well, i think my title tells it all.
I really need a vacation! I think i'm stressing myself too much but i'm still not satisfied.
urghh! Make me understand myself somebody. =(

Fun and Loveable day!

2007-07-21T10:42:00.000+08:00

Went Vivo yesterday with none other than ZULEIRA~!!
haha! She was bored so we decided to spent the rest of our day there.

Walked around and bought donut to eat while we enjoy the view at the rooftop.

It was pleasant as there weren't many people there since it was a weekday. Later in the evening people started to stroll in so, we walked around the shopping centre again looking for things that we wanna buy but we didnt, cos obviously, we have no money. haha! But at least i've aimed my eyes on a few things that i wanna buy when the time is right, which is next week when my pay is in. hoho!

Oh yar, saw a few people. And i'm so embarrassed to say that i forgot their names! urghh! Saw Iskandar first at Adidas since he's working there. Then, saw sofian who was with his girlfriend. =) I shall try to remember peoples name better. But it's very unlikely of me to not remember people's name! What's happening to my big head? Hopefully not brainless. bleargh!

We saw Roslan and Kak Sabby, together with the rest of the Anugerah group. =)

I shall post pictures now.

Ok! now pictures from the outing. But not all of cos! too many!!! haha..

Alritey~!! working today. =( Have fun peoples~!!

Great day spent

2007-07-19T22:07:00.001+08:00

Went Buffet Sakura at Clementi for dinner with class just now and it was GREAT! The food there was nice. I actually starved myself from yesterday just for this outing. hahaha!
Anyways, will update the pictures soon when i gt most of them. Good night!

It wasn't a good idea to see that picture.
Too late now.

Arghhhh suffering!

2007-07-17T22:32:00.001+08:00

Man this constipation is leading to a bad headache now. I don't know how it is related but it is. haizz.. And my whole body is aching now cos i force myself just now for don't know how long. Why do i always have problems with my bowel. Mom says it's cos i'm not eating proper. Even when i do eat, she says, like not enough. My appetite has dropped lah, what to do. There's a god thing to it though. =) But it's making me suffer every few weeks i think. If it's not constipation then it's diarrhoea. urghh! If this goes on, i'm afraid i'll have problems with delivery in the future (chey! pikir jauh. haha). ok2. I'm still in pain ok, eventhough i'm like joking now. =(

Aniways, Ain showed us a video in school earlier. Actually a few videos BUT this particular one scare me like real badly. It's about a guy who was playing soccer and he passed away. In Islam term, kene tarik nyawe. It was, undescribable as i was too shocked. Speechless. I just couldn't believe what i saw but i knew it was true. It's also sad to watch the video as i was reflecting myself at the moment, now even. I'm not a strong Muslim that's why i feel very scared when i see this kinda things. I just kept asking myself when am i gonna change the way i am. =(
For those who wanna see the video you can type in soccer player or something like that cos i think i shouldn't post it here.

I gotta start studying. Can somebody, everybody just push me? Seriously. So far i'm only satisfied with my PAS since i did well for it. NS3 was ok i guess. Got a D. The others? Like shit! That's the reason why i should start studying really really soon! And i mean it! No TVs, well actually, since i've been in poly, i rarely watch TV especially since i started working. haizz.. Ana, you totally have no life lah. Next week is like super hectic. My schedules like killing me!!

Btw, i'm still stressed cos i'm so indecisive as usual. I'm still thinking, since last year, whether i should or should not be bonded. Mainly because, i can't concentrate well in studies cos i'm working part time. Last year, i could relax during the weekends but this year i just couldn't. I can't even hang out with my friends. Plus, i got to know that attachments falls on fasting month. ahh! And the last day of attachment is malam raye! ='( I want my life back please.

Back to the topic, should i take bond?
Advt:
-i can stop working as i will receive money every month from the hospital that i'm bonded to
-i'll sort of confirm have a job for the future
-motivate me to work harder

Disadvt:
-i'll be in great trouble if i fail any modules
-i definitely can't slack2 in terms of school work
-i definitely can't break the bond cos i'll have to pay more than what they give me

STRESS STRESS STRESS!!

Oooh lala~!!

2007-07-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

Like finally i've changed my blogskin. hee!

Got the image from yahoo. Cute huh! So decided to put it. =D

Now my blog is going on looong, so u my dear friends now you'll have to scroll down. haha!

But i didn't change the colour though cos i'm still in the mood of black. =) It's like simple and people don't have to strain their eyes to read the words i typed. You must thank me that i didn't choose the polka dot that i saw earlier. I think your minds will go round with it. hahaha!

Aniways, school getting crazier but with the dearies, Fyza, Ain and Zuli, my life in school is just great! Crazy but great. Today we laughed non-stop. Hopefully i won't cry later on. hahaha!

I've updated my schedule in the Days column. And! i realise that it's such a long list. DAMN!!!

112 post

2007-07-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

Since this is my 112 post, it basically means that my previous was 111. Cool huh! hee.. And the thing is, i just realised it just now. blurrie me.. I love my blog, compared to multiply and another blog that i used to have. haha! I don't know how many blogs i've tried all this years.

Anyways, i shall update bout what happened on Friday that made me feel as if someone just chopped my head off and shove it up my ass cos i felt so super embarrassed for being a MALAY!

On Friday, while me and the rest were about to have breakfast in Canteen 1, we saw a fight and the worst thing is, it was between this Malay spoiled-Mat cum gangster-prasan-besar and an old Indian man. The Malay guy who's working as a "cleaner" in our school confronted the old man about him making a complaint so obviously he wasn't happy so he slapped that old man.
We were right beside him! I was so super MALU!!!! I kept my head down all the way mann!! People were watching. OMG!! Like WTH lahh! I felt like calling my father down. SERIOUSLY! I already said in my heart, if things got worst, confirm i'll call! Like STOOP LAH OK!! Pick someone your own age and your own size lah, BLOODY HELL!!
That Malay guy was Fat and Short and Ugly and of cos NOT EDUCATED!
Since he doesn't even know how to settle a small problem by just sitting down and chat. I was so MAD i couldn't explain how i felt at that moment.
Instantly, all of us didn't have the appetite to eat. Spoil our mood, spoil our appetite, worst of all, SCRATCHED MY FACE!! NO WAIT! STABBED ME!
I was so embarrassed that i'm a Malay. But now i realised something, i shouldn't be embarrassed cos it wasn't our fault that people see us as a threat to the society. It's mainly because of those immature old geeks that feel they have to beat people up to gain respect that make people see us bad. Well, to those people, by doing all this things, you don't gain respect but shows how stupid and nonsensical and idiotic and bloody uneducated and immature you are!! GROW UP!!

Ok, that was long. Initially i wanted to just summarize it all up but the anger is still in me. haha! That's me. PLUS i'm having PMS now. So it's just a bad combination yarr..

=) Back to school tomorrow!! Stress stress stress! Can i have a peace of mind for just 1 day? Pleasseeee! =(

One Down!

2007-07-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

Finally!! I've finished my NS3 individual Assignment. But, somehow, i'm not confident in myself. I'm afraid that my plagiarism level will be high. =( We'll just have to see how tomorrow. I can't get into turnitin, so i can't submit the document today. I don't know what's wrong with that MEL. Convenience huh? As if! Even attendance tapping thing outside our lecture theatre is not accurate. Sometimes technologies just can't overrule humans. So the leceh! =P

Having 3hrs break tomorrow. So, my group shall do our PAS Project that we'll have to present next week. The topic is Alternative Medication. Interesting huh! So we'll shall find out about traditional meds found in Singapore.

Somehow, i'm feeling bored now. haha! I know, i'm crazy! hee! I've yet to do NS4 and PAS assignment and the micriteaching and yet i'm saying i'm bored. bleargh! =P

Oh yar! Btw, the lecturer in NS4 was super draggy lah ok. When i went through the slides, i can see that she could actually finish it in an hour lah but erghh!! Then i was fed up all the way cos she kept on blabberring bout alot of things but she wasn't moving on with her slides and everyone was starting to be sleepy lah! haizz..

Now i know what i wasn't sure then.

2007-07-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

At least now i can tell myself to forget you.

No matter what i do, i think things won't change.

I'm not blaming anyone cos i know right from the beginning, it's all my mistakes.

My mistakes that cost me my happiness.

All i can do now is pray for your happiness.

Went Marina with Zu yesterday. Thought of not getting anything but in the end bought a cute tube from Mango. Here it is.

Zu! Ape yg kiter bebual semalam terjadi. =(

What a nice day!!

2007-07-05T11:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZ!!

YOU'VE TURNED 20!

WITH THE BIGGGG 2!!

HEH!

The cake and sitting by the beach. =) Hope you had fun yesterday.

I know i did. Surprisingly you won't late. haha! On the dot lagi. Good!

I love the weather today can! So the cooling, soothing.. What a nice day to just relax. But to bad i can't, i'll have to enjoy the nice weather by doing my assignments. bleargh!

It's funny how you spend time with your besties...

2007-06-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Met with Ifa at around 5 and slacked at plaza. Ate at KFC.

Both of us got full half way through the meal so we stuffed the other half. Bleargh!! haha..

After that we walked around and surprisingly both of us had stomachache. Like so leceh can!! Then we just hang in there. Haha! Went to the library cos ifa wanted to us the comp. You guys know how i don't like to use public comps, cos there's just no privacy but in the end i got influenced by her and i topped up my own account and use the comp too. Mepeks eh!

Saw Malek and Sopian. Malek, you're getting cuter by the years man. =) I think all of them do lah seriously. Evrytime i see my ex schmates, i will think of how they've change. =)

Now, i'm gonna help produce ifa's blog. So kecoh lah that girl. =P

i really don't understand

2007-06-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

Must you say unnecessary hurtful things? Seriously?
I really don't understand lah. You're always asking why he's getting mad but have you thought of whatever you said that makes him mad? erghh! Eventhough it doesn't concern me, i felt it too ok? Why didn't you say those things to me before but you say them to him. Sometimes i just don't get it. haizz..

Whatever lah ok. I've officially ended my attachments. Yeahness! But not really a holiday for me. I'll be working on my assignments. I wanna finsh them by the end of theholidays if possible. I'll try to get enough rest eventhough i'll be working more. =) I'm trying to cover up for the money that i've lost in the previous pay cos i didn't work during the common test. I've realised tat my pay is lesser than what i actually work. Haizz.. What should i do eh? I need the money too seh. =(

I wanna change the main picture. This is boring. =)

I'm back!! As me!! =))

2007-06-23T09:13:00.000+08:00

Came back from chalet. Had MC on Wed and Thur and coincidentally, my family chalet falls on that day so yar. My fever was quite high uhh. I've deduced something about me. When i'm busy, i get tired. When i'm tired, i won't get enough rest. When i don't get enough rest, my immune sytem sucks. When my immune system suck, i fall sick. Easy aint it? huahua! =)

Cos of that MC, yesterday wasn't my last day, have to make-up on Mon and Tue.

Anyways, I'm gonna be the cheery me again. I wanna laugh like there's no tomorrow and smile all the way (even if people think i'm crazy). I'm missing those times in secondary school when problems are not really a part of me. When it can just come and go not like now, problems remains as problems unless something is worked on. =)

So friends prepare!! I'm gonna say goodbye to sadness cos there's no ending to it. I'm gonna live life to the fullest even if i don't have time to. hee^_^

I've noticed something else. Now, i'm sticking on powder and mascara. Cos i think mascara makes my eyes look fresh and i don't need to put on eyeliner. Eyeliner makes your eyes look bg but it'll turn out looking black at e end of the day. =) Moral of the story, I'm gonna stick to wearing mascara and maybe superbly thin eyeliner cos they make me look fresh and people prefer looking at others looking fresh than dull. Right?? ^_^

On a dirtier note,hehe.. I think my bowel is improving cos i'm starting to BO everyday. Improvement aiye? hahaha..

Oh Gosh! Super random entry! hahaha.. Take care dearies. I'm working today. Visit me? hee..

1 week left!!

2007-06-15T19:09:00.000+08:00

I've been gone for a week from this bloggie so let me update my days.. =D

Since Monday was the first day of attachment in paediatric setting, i was superly the very blur. I totally didn't know what to do and i'm like totally lost. Haha! Of cos the day went by slow and dull cos i've yet to familiarize with everything and everyone.

It then got better the next few days, cos i did feeding and sponging and parameters and whatever else junior work. So time got past preety quickly. Rondell darling went back home just now. Ahh.. he's such a cutiee lahh.. hee! ^_^ I'll post a picture of him.

Next week will be the last week of attachment. Counting down time for me. haha! Siva already started counting down from the first day of work. Right Siva? funny lah u!!

So here's a picture of RONDELL DARLING!! He's everyone's darling. CUTIEE!!

Oh yar!! Before i forget, i even got to hold up a real life placenta. =)

They say being loved is better than to love..

They say letting go of the one's that you love for their happiness is a sacrifice you'll have to make..

But, what is a sacrifice when you are left with nothing?

Time well spent!

2007-06-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

Went court yesterday for the court hearing in ELAHA module. hahs! funny lah.. So many interesting cases. =)

After that, me, Ain and Fyza met Ezzie at Harbourfront. Walked around for awhile. Then, Fyza went off with her bachin. So left the 3 of us. All we did was went in 1 shop and went out and went in another and went out. hahaha! All tempted to buy something but didn't. As for me, i didn't spend on anything cos i already spent too much the other time with Zu. bleargh! haha.. I really need a financial advisor. hmmph!
We sat at the rooftop when it was sunset and sat there till 9 plus i think. I don't know why i was thinking so much. Like my mind kept racing. hmmz..

Broke down when i reached home cos chatted with isk and he told me to share what i was thinking. So yar, feeling much much better now. Thx isk! n yar, we will go out 1 day. Vivo ok? heh! You're my always "majok" big brother. =P Love disturbing u. =)

k, gotta get ready for work. haizz.. Andand!! Monday's attachment. My uniform is sooooooooo baggy lah can!! But no time to alter so i shall tahan with it for the time being.. bleargh!

Take care lovelies!! ^_^

Common Test Over!!!

2007-06-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

wooohooo CT is over so i shall not talk about the papers..

Watched Patriot and Grounded for Life earlier. Slacked at home.

Feeling sad for someone. =( Shit do happen. Haizz! Why did it happen man? He love her so much. No matter what, cheer up aite bro! You totally deserve someone way better than her. Don't wait for her no more. She's not worth your presence. =)

I've been thinking. It's been 10 months. =) And i'm still surviving, on my own. Not to say that it has been smooth all along, but i do fall sometimes. But that's just how life is. People fall, and what do they have to do? Get up and start moving again. I'm just thinking... Thanks for the memories. What matters is your family and all your loved ones. I need to thank all my besties who have been with me cos without them, i don't think i can be like this cos i think i will be "hanyut"? Thx! =)

I hope he can do that too.. You're a nice guy. Let another girl realise that.

Thx, NOT!

2007-06-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

I'm bloody irritated cos i've just realised that certain people just wanna gain things for themselves. When asked, they don't know. But then, ask me back? Wth! If you want to gain things for yourself than don't ask me. Sorry! But i can't work one way. It's not only for this but for everything that has gone through. Come on! Realise it quick! All i have to say is, now i know the people who are trully sincere to me. Crossed*!

The siblings have been damn irritating as well. Erghh!!

Pardon me! This is my exam stress mode and i get frustrated easily. Blowing up!

Updates updates!!!

2007-06-02T09:14:00.000+08:00

wow! it's been long huh? haha.. Even the chalet i didn't update. lols!

Anyways, chalet was chalet, as usual. I'm used to chalet so there's nothing much.

Went shopping with Zu dear on Wednesday. Spent alot but i'm happy cos i bought things/clothes that i needed. hee! Met at town, walked around. Then we decided to go to Marina. That's where we spent more things. haha! Then, at night we saw Fauzy Laily!! So cute.. hee!

Yesterday, Elaha test was damn!! I didn't know how to do the SAQ cos i thought Principles will come out. dangs! Everyone was like scratching their heads when it comes to the SAQ. Bleaghh! Like Fyza said, it'll be a miracle if we pass. Eventhough i hope that we passed cos i don't wanna a retest. Good thing the remaining percentage comes from court visit, project, assignment and debate, if not, we're done for. Erghh! I sooo hate Elaha. The lecturers makes the module sound so simple but it's not! haizz.. Nvm..

Btw, class was unhappy about something one of our classmate wrote in her blog entry. Haizz.. Whatever lah! There's always this kinda things every year. I guess that's why the lecturers wanted to change our class. But there's not much difference anyway. Why can't people just get along and learn how to give and take? wonders* When you hear this kinda stories, it's sad lah cos we're suppose to be working together. And btw, if you're reading this, I said thx. I guess you didn't realise it huh.

Working today, 11am-11pm. Haizz.. I guess he gave me 12hrs cos i'm not working tomorow and didn't work last week. Nvm, at least i'll have money coming in. Right Ain? haha.. That's what she said, but it's true, it made me feel better. ^_^

Loves people!!

Oh yarr!! n i don't know where has my background picture gone to. haizz..

Off i go!! wooosh!!

2007-05-25T08:43:00.000+08:00

Going chalet today after school till Sunday at Aloha Loyang.

Ok, since i've been MIA for quite long, let me update on a few things yar.

Firstly, my coungh and running nose is not getting better, it's been a week already. blearghh!!

Monday,

Had NSL pract. I think i did bad but i know i passed cos the examiner told my classmate. hmmz.. disapointing..

Wednesday,

Met Zu after school, how nice of her to come down to NP. hehs! Then, we ate at Al-Azhar, the two of us. Went to plaza, walked around with my 10kg book that i've just bought! Medical and Surgical Nursing. Then, she sent me home, cos she wanted to get something from me.. hee =D What are besties for rite! heh!

Thursday,

Did the video or NS4 presentation next week. So kekek lahh!! hahaha.. We did it in the library cos we couldn't book any rooms. hmmz.. Even the rooms in the library are all taken. wth! So yar, we went up to the 3rd level and chose this ulu2 ending and did our video.

Today,

Going to school for a 2hrs tutorial. I'm lazy to go actually, cos i still want to continue studying my NS3. Hmm.. Gonna have a Movie Marathon after that from 5-10pm. Off to chalet after that. Foooh! Gonna be moving around alot today. hehs!

Gotta get ready for school in awhile. tatazzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy weekends people!!!!!!!!!!!

Woohoo~!!

2007-05-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

Dad bought a phone for me.. grins* I LOVE IT LAHH CAN!!!

Then, bought 1G sd with my own money. It's ok.. =) It's not expensive.

Went Lot 1 with Fiqah to collect my polo t and then we went pizza hut for our meal. Coolness! heh.. Imagine lah, just the two of us. haha! Like lost souls.

Yesterday was my super blur day. I was suppose to start school at 9am but i confirmly thought that class starts at 10am so i was damnly late! hahaha.. When i told my friends, they laughed at me. boohoo! Very bad leh! hahaha..

Met with syitah after school. Initially, she wanted to do treatment to her hair but the salon was closed so we went plaza and had our meal at KFC and walked around. It's been loong since we "tawaf" there aimlessly. heh! Times have change lah right. =)

Next week will be NSL practical test. haizz.. I'm still not at all ready sehh!!

My ever-so-burok face at lecture.. bleargh..=P hahaha!

ok2! Better get to studying.

Bubyezz!!

It all turn out well indeed.

2007-05-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

Had gastric the whole of thursday and i couldn't eat cos everytime i eat, i feel the bloatedness.
Yesterday morning, diarrhea and couldn't go to the first NSL lesson. Went to school at 11am for tutorial then NSL.

Met Raf, Zu and Yanti after school. Catch Spidey 3 at Lot 1. The movie was alright but the freaking people sitting behind was damnly irritatingly dumbasses! Kept kicking my chair! Bloddy toots! whatever!
Walked around, then wanted to buy polo at Giordano but there wasn't any of my size so they had to transfer from another outlet. I'll take it in a few days time. =)
So after that, slacked at Mc as usual and ate. At about 11pm, we separated.
THE END! hahaha

Working today. I feel like it's been long since i went to work. haha.. ok that's lame.
I calculated my pay and i'm surprised! hahaha..

okiee.. till next time!

2007-05-10T16:20:00.000+08:00

NS4 lect with Mary is so the merepek!! Firstly, she's totally not organized. Secondly, her notes is everywhere, our manual isn't the same as her slides. WTH! And she'll have this like "skit" after lect which is soooo lame. haizz.. Why this years lect so boring?? And now i understand why many people from the previous batch failed this module. bleargh!!

I'm like superly irritated lahh.. i'm really scared that i'll fail this year. DAMN!!!

Boringness!

2007-05-10T13:10:00.000+08:00

In school library now, ending my 3hrs break soon. =)
Having another 2hr lecture. haizz.. bore!

Went Town with Ezzie yesterday. Her objective was to find a job but as usual, it didnt work. Apat from that, she spent more instead of making money. muahaha! =P Ezzie! ure so funnie!
Ate at Ramen Ten and it was coolness. ^_^

Maybe meeting besties tomorrow. Ahh.. i miss them sooo.. =(

Weird body..

2007-05-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

Been waking up in the middle of the night and not abling to fall asleep again until like 5am like that. Therefore, i've not enough sleep and rest. Haizz.. Wonder what's wrong. And i hate when i'm tired cos i get pissed and irritated easily. Bing2 should know this by now already. I'm awfully sorry Bing2! But i know you understand. =)

Played badminton to relax off just now and i'm feeling like way much better than early in the morning. =) What's wrong with me? Seriously? Sometimes when i get angry for minor things, i'll just hate myself. bleargh!

Going out with Ezzie tomorrow after like few weeks of waiting for her. haha! I miss her and her craziness cos she can definitely cheer me up cos we'll keep on talking bout eyecandy!! muahaha.. Ezzie2! Notty2..

Manager called when i was having break just now in school and asked if i could work tomorrow. haha. And as what my friends there told me, i said no and he deduced that "oh ader proj eh". Then he said ok. So, i didnt lie did i? He said it on his own. Man i'm bad. haha. I told my dad the previous time bout what i did, and he said "That's lying, but not bad. You have to do it sometimes". ahh.. loves! hahaha..

I better stop here now. I'll update another time yar.. ^_^
btw, who's ms 995?? Tell me pleaseee.. =)'

I don't like your gf!!

2007-05-05T11:37:00.000+08:00

Hey hey you you!!!
hahaha.. =P

Yeahhness!!

2007-05-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

Just came back from playing badminton with bro as usual. =) Been playing badminton much frequent now and my bicycle has not been touched for awhile. hmmz.

But! What's making me happy is not really bout playing badminton as that is usual to keep me awake and relaxed. My lappy was sent to Acer and the man did a great job in rebooting my lappy as it is like brand new now. All systems up! heh! =) happiness..

Working tomorrow and Sunday, 3-11pm. I'm liking work cos the people are just so great and that it's quite relaxing most of the time. Sometimes i feel like i'm not really working. haha!

Bro voiced out his anxiousness for the upcoming MT o's. All the best yar, i'm preety sure you can do it, of cos better than me. =) I'm not jealous.

I'm feeling lonely more and more each day.

But i'm happy that i have family and friends around me.

Thanks for all the support for the past few months, especially for Mom and Dad.

Loves!

Life isn't always about relationship.

It's how you treasure the people around you.

Maybe this has made me wiser.

Just maybe...

Fight decay!

2007-05-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha!

Went for a dental appointment just now and i was squeezed 105 bux for polishing, filling and chlorexidane mouthwash. Haizz! Why is medical in Singapore so expensive??

Dentist told me that i had to go for tooth extraction, and not 1 but 2!! You know what's the cost of it? $450 PER TOOTH!! dangs! I can do alot of things with that. hmmz.. And 2 of my wisdom is coming out but like "shy" like that. So slow.. hahaha!

Went to school for 2hrs lecture only. Was lazy to go but forced myself to cos i can't afford to be lazy this year. =)

Oh yar!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FYZA!!! You're a year older and a year wiser. hurhur! Kakak kiter dah ___ uhh this year. hehe! Shouldn't reveal her age here..

How can i not be angry?

2007-04-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

This is why i hate staying at home. I can feel my BP rising everytime i'm at home (seriously!).

Why are brothers always like this? erghh!!

Survived 10hrs of work yesterday. In fact it wasnt that bad afterall. Time passes quite fast, maybe cos of the crowd. Certain times i like crowds, but when it's changing shift, its plain annoyance. bleaghh!

I need $$! I need to shop! I need a new hp cos this one keeps offing by itself! I NEED to stop spending. hmph! Allowance still not in and if i'm not wrong, i won't be getting my pay this time. I'll have to wait for next month. haizz..

I'm missing my besties lahh! They went out yesterday and i couldnt follow cos i was working 9-7pm. sob2! I hope i can meet them on tuesday cos im not schooling.. hee!

That's the funny part, my boss asked me whether i'm schooling on tuesday and i said i'm having projects, so i wont be able to work. oops! hurhur! ^_^ Don't blame me! I learnt this from those working there, that i can't be too "ok ok", like how i was last week. hahaha! funny seh..

Last but not least!! IM FAT!!! I need to lose weight lahh.. I'll even donate my fats to those who can't gain weight (ehem2! fyza?), if i have to! haizzzz.... AndAnd! I hate it when people who are not fat, insisting that they are "fat" and can't seem to stop saying the word FAT! blearghh! I'm mean.. *_*

What brother!

2007-04-27T12:12:00.001+08:00

My brother saw my hair yesterday and so i asked him how it is.
You wanna know what he said?? He said, "Macam helmet seh!"
Basket brother.. urghh! ^_^

Anyways, in school now, nothing much. bubyez!

New Look??

2007-04-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

muahaha! i got my hair cut and treatment today for just 40bux in total. hee!
I'm happy cos my hair is very light now (extremely light actually!).
Hopefully the treatment works. sighs*

When is the hospital allowance gonna be in seh?? bleargh! It's more than a month already.
Why are they doing this to us? =P haha

And HASSAN!! I want ben&jerry ice-cream lahh.. You temp me. =P

Alright2, have to study for NSL quiz tomorrow.
Tataz dearies! ^_^

I guess i was wrong all along..

2007-04-24T19:47:00.000+08:00

Is it true that, whenever we don't meet as often as always we will miss each other even more?
Is it true that, the love will be stronger?
I think that's all bullshit..

I hate what's happening now.. I hate it! I hate when there's miscommunication, when there's quarreling, when there's crying..

I'm tired and i'm stress! My heart is aching real bad.. Oh GOD! I miss old times.. ='(

How i wish i can go to the beach now n cry my feelings out!! erghhhhhh!!!!!!!
I miss peacefulness..

2007-04-24T08:57:00.000+08:00

There's a reason now for updating..

I'm suppose to have a lecture at 8 and im sitting outside lect cos im LATE!!

2007-04-14T09:19:00.000+08:00

School starts in another 2 days. Get ready people!! AND AND enjoy your last 2 days of holidays, for the horror is yet to come. Ok2, exaggerating.. Actually, school's better than attachment, sometimes, even better than holidays. I did mention "sometimes". When projects and assignments come, i just want them to end. FULSTOP!

Most of my classmates are still the same though. So, not much change, except for our pratical class. Oh, i'm missing them.

My mp3 is gonna die soon. Faris dropped it yesterday, and now, even the batt cover is broken. I'm surprised that it can still play. I guess the time has come. I've used the mp3 for already more than a year now. Talking bout great timing, i'm buying a new phone. It settles it then. No worries!

From the moment i saw you.

From the moment i look into your eyes.

Independence Strikes

2007-04-10T12:59:00.000+08:00

First day of work yesterday went fine. People there were great. =)
I'll have to juggle with school and work now. I'm telling myself that i can do it.

Seems like alot will change this coming 2nd year in poly. I'm looking forward to school eventhough i'll have no life with work and schooling. It's ok, i'll have to manage. Give me encouragement yar peeps! ^_^

Working again today at 3pm. Other than that, i'm fine. I miss being in school. haizz..

Feeling much better..=)

2007-04-04T11:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,
Went Lot 1 with Fiqah and syitah. Ate and walked around. Then, off to fiqah's house. Watched Police Academy 1, 2 and 3. Crazy! I know! We were just so bored.

Watched Parent Trap and New York Minute on Youtube. So fun! I love Mary Kate and Ashley.. =)

Staying at home today i guess.. I'll try busy myself.. ^_^

Time adorably spent..

2007-04-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

I wonder where THIS is going..

I hope you're not just leading me on when there's atually nothing.. =)

We shall see then..

Nothing much bout my life now. =)

I'm just learning to treasure everyone around me. I really have to.

Someone has given me the hope to be ME again and i find myself smiling even in the hardest moments. ^_^ Thankiew!

Tagged!

2007-03-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

Ok now, eventhough i'm like superly over-lazy to do this kinda things, I'll still have to do it. I don't even forward chain mails lahh what do you expect? bleargh!

So here goes!

"This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game..People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselvesas well as state the rules clearly.In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that,leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."

1) Whenever i eat a burger, a sandwich or whatever like that, i'll have to eat the sides first. Don't ask why. I can't explain!

2) I need 5 pillows to sleep (except when i'm not sleeping on my own bed). 1 for my head, 1 for my back, 1 for my leg, 1 for me to put on my body and lastly 1 to hug. haha!

3) I will try out God knows how many shirts, skirt, pants before going out everytime, without fail.

4) My hands will shake frequently even when i'm not nervous. This happens usually when i tie braids for others.

5) I will eat the same meal again and again whenever i go to fast-foods restaurant. McChicken for Mcd, Zinger for KFC, Mushroom swiss for BK. hee!

6) Spray perfume 4 times when getting ready, 4 before going out. It's a must! haha..

Now, the lucky 6 are...
*drumroll!*

1) Apis
2) Seha
3) Ezzie
4) Nana
5) Weena
6) Ammin

Shittish..

2007-03-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

Damn i hate myself for being like this..

Why can't i just forget everything??

Why can't i just stop bothering??

Cos it hurts everytime i bother..

Ergghh! I miss my old self.. I want to laugh like there's no tomorrow! :'(

Craziness!

2007-03-18T12:02:00.000+08:00

Went back home around 4+am yesterday (or maybe it's this morning). Haha.. Parents, me and Farhan decided to go town at 11pm. Walk around town, just the four of us (like old times!). Haha.. After that bought tickets for Stomp the Yard. It was all on Dad! haha.. Seriously, i'm not satisfied with the movie. I think You Got Served is way way much better! haha.. Nvmlah, not my $$.

Still have the crave to go out today. Let's see whether zu is free. Maybe just chilling would be best. ^_^

There goes Year 1.

2007-03-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

Attachment ends yesterday and there goes my Year 1. I'll be going on to Year 2 as i've passed every single one of my modules. winks*

Overall, attachment was great apart from one of the staff there. Haha! And only us and the CI knows about her. oops! The other staffs there are super nice and funfunfun peoples! hee..

Went out with my younger cousin today and spent quite alot. It's like "bayar niat". Haha.. translations please! ^_^

Wanna go out moremoremore!!! With besties and cousins! And i've just remembered, i still haven't go out with my cousin Ammin! I miss him lahh..

Oh and yar! Bro helped to trim my hair when i reached home. It looks damn cute now! (my hair that is, not me..hee!)

Humans are har to understand

2007-03-12T09:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just don't understand how parents can hit their children so hard that they will be injured. Furthermore, the child is already abnormal. Thinking about it makes me angry and sad.
Sometimes i just wanna go to them and teach them a lesson. I'm good with words but what's stopping me is that, his their own son. I don't have the right to tell them what to do.
Someone older than me already advised them long ago but he doesn't wanna listen. So what if i interfere? I don't think he'll give a damn.
I wonder if there's hope for these people to change. Why can't they release their anger in another way? For God's Sake, he's abnormal! Can't you understand the term. Haizz.. It really saddens me cos everytime when i go there i will see the treatment. Don't you have feelings? Put your bloody self into his shoes lah and feel what his feeling right now. I'm sure it's stressing him a whole lot! He doesn't want to be that way. Do you think they wanna be the way they are now? You're his parent! Have that fatherly feeling can?

ergghh! Humans are hard to understand. Seriously!

I shall update.. muahaha!

2007-03-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

ok reply to all the tags first can?

to Weena: krg2 ni.. tak saba2 btl lah.. sabarlah! nanti entry aku pjg GILERRR!! heheh! =)

to Zu: ewah!! sejak biler aku nak update pon ader time limit?? tapi mmg lah aku dah lame tak update.. haha.. aku update skrg ni! make sure ko bace! bluek*

to heDz: hey!! thx2! i miss you.. so long seh tak npk.. haha.. hope to c u in sch soon..

to seha: hey gurl! miss you miss you!! biler seh nak kluar lagik?? ^_^ loves*

to Nana: ello dear! ure always here eh? hehe! loves*

Now i shall update about my life.

Today,
It was action pack today at work, mainly cos there was 2 code blue. In case you all don't know what it is, it's when suddenly the patient collapse and you'll have to push this big trolly that they call the "emergency trolley". SO! obviously it isn't a good thing to be happening and it isn't what nurses are looking for..haha. But for me, it was cool lah! seriously.. cos everyone was like rushing around looking for everything and can really see who panicked. Blearghh!
I heard from the nurses that last night at 11.30, one of them in my room passed away. He was DIL so everybody expected it. So today, the patient next to him passed away. When i was about to end shift, one of the patient in the next room was also put to code blue. (i don't know whether he's still alive or not). Sorry to put it this way. We have to be sensitive when it comes to all this.. =) respect..

6th and 7th Mar,
Had fever for the 2 days but i went to work anyways. My temperature was in the 38 and above range. I was surprised that i could still work. Gotta improve my immune system. I'm well now btw. haha.. So no worries!

Overall for the attachment,
Some of the SSN or SN or EN are really driving me nuts lahh.. Like two days ago, SSN whom we called yaya-papaya. I wanted to take a case file of my patient to do my case study and this is what she said.. "Don't touch my files! Please don't touch my files." I was like! " What the hell!" in my heart that is! She still has the cheat to smile lah! lame jackass SSN! And guess what! the students are not the only ones who hate her lah! even ther staffs there couldn't stand her attitude. bleargh! Good thing shes a part time nurse! if shes there every single day, someone's gonna be killed real SOON!!

I think there's nothing else to update now.. Personal stuffs are in my cutie diary. hehe.. ^_^ secrets secrets! huhu!

Maybe it's the change of my 18th body. lols!

2007-02-21T16:35:00.000+08:00

Suppose to be the first day of attachment today but hmm..

I woke up and i felt real bad but i still bathe and got ready. When i was about to leave home i felt chilly and my whole body was perspiring, it's likei got drenched by my own sweat. So i choose not to go as my parens advise not to as they were worried i'll faint. I wanna go cos today is the first day and there's orientation and stuffs but well..
So i'll have to catch up tomorrow then.

Went to the doctor earlier and was prescribed Pacofen for boy aches and fever, and eyedrop for my red eye. The doctor said maybe i got the red eye cos i was wearing contacts when i went trekking on Monday. So now, he ask me to lay off the contacts for a week and let my eyes rest. haizz.. The difficult thing is! It's attachment! I hate to wear specs during attachment. It's double the trouble. Too bad lah.. Have to..

Random.
I think my hair looks different all the time. It just likes to change itself. There isn't anytime that it looks te same and people thinks i change my hairstyle again when it's actually the same. Sometimes it's cool though, when it keeps changing by itself. But sometimes it's plain irritating cos it doesn't go the way i want it too. ^_^

My fellow readers, do you have any sngs that you can recommend me to? Cos i don't have any specific songs that i like now. dangs..

2007-02-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

This girl turned 18 yesterday and she had the wonderfulless birthday ever. She was pampered by her family and friends. She's the happiest princess (for a day) on earth.

haha..lols! it's me of cos.

15th feb
Spent the day with my two polymates, Ezzie and Ain loves. hee! They planned out something that i didn't even know it was coming. Girls! nice acting.. And you succeeded in making me cry out of being too touched. haha! Anyways we watched the Epic Movie. hmm.. which totaled to 3 times watching for me cos i didn't know i already watched it.. blurrie me! lols! Then, it was pizza hut for us and after we chill at the merlion and that's where they gave me a surprise! so malu! hee

17th feb
At home, Dad bought a BIG cake which i don't know how much it costs. haha! And gave me their present. LOVES! Even if they didn't buy anything or didn't celebrate i will still love them.. =)
Went out in the late afternoon to meet the besties and watched Ghost Rider at cwp.. It was awesome lah! hee..
Then slacked at Lot 1 mac.

Conclusion!
I've spent alot this month..
I had a superb 18th birthday..
AND i love all my dearies!! ^_^

oh and btw, Dad asked whether i wanna take car liscence and i said "YES!" haha..
But i odn't know when it's gonna be lah cos i think schedule will be tight. insyallah boleh.. =)

I miss you all!! sob2*

2007-02-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

I miss al my besties VERY VERY much! haizz.. Syitah, Zu, Raf, Nad, Yani and Iqa!!
Now i'm missing my sec years cos poly life is so different.

I've been busy with school and i don't have time for my besties. We meet rarely and it's not even all of us there. haiyo! AND AND, i'm still schooling lah! I don't know what will happen if, oh sorry when* i start working in the future. dengdengs!
Will be meeting them soon i guess. Celebrate valentines together can??!! hee ^_^

Ok, enough of that! Paper yesterday was fine. Fine i mean fine, no more than that! Cos i think i was crapping! Good luck to the lecturer who's marking that script of mine.

Today, when i turned the paper, i was panicking lah! I thought the paper was hard! Then, when i turn to SAQ, it was ok. So conclusion, MCQ was complicating. Nvm, it's over. Now, i'll have have to worry bout tomorrow. Haizz.. Pharmacology! Sians lehh.. I don't even know what to study. The thing is, it's not entirely bout studying, it's understanding and how you can come out with answers on the spot. It's like those critical thinking stuffs. But i really hate pharmacodynamics! erghh! Study study here i go.

Bubyez dearies! I'll try to update often yar since tomorrow will be the last day of exams. woohoo! oh shush, i should be studying not hooraying. dengs!

Anger triggered.

2007-02-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

FON paper tomorrow. I'm really freaking out already! It's like the time i was taking my o's results. haizz..

No more failing pleasssse! I don't wanna have any contract learning. It will only add up to the stress level.

On a brighter note. The results this year are way better than last year's. I'm not surprised though. Well done to Nad, Raf, Yanie, Iqa and Syitah. All my besties got through. Especially Nad, who shocked us with her results. hahs!

When we met her at Fajar sec, i really felt the same emotions as last year when i got mine. I still felt that disappointment. haizz.. Which i shouldn't cos i'm already in poly. I should be happy. =)

I get angry preety easily and ugly this past few days. Urghh! It's like everyone (except for all my besties.. hee!) around me pressing my anger button. Lame!

Nerdy me with specs. I look OLD! mann..

i WANT to love Feb..

2007-02-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

Seriously..
Feb used to be a great month, well, it still is where my birthday is concerned. But what i'm talking bout is something different.

I'm sorry readers if you don't get whatever i'm typing in this entry but that's the whole point.

I'm sorry to all my dearies for feeling this way. DAMN! erghh..

I wanna love Feb again. Why must a lot of things happen in Feb. sigh*

Syitah.. I miss talking to you. WTH, i miss you lah.
I wanna talk to you again on the phone. For long long hours, just talking bout stuffs. haizz..

I've got alot to say but i just don't know how to.

Ok, let's change the mood a little. My bro cheered me up by playing badminton with me, then, i played soccer (sort of!) with him. As usual i will go for keeper. So i got hit a few times. ermmmm, well actuali, lots and lots of times but it was great lah.

i wanna be held tight in the arms of the one i trust..
i want you to be with me when things are just not rite..
i wanna be with you..

it isn't for anyone.. it's just some imaginary person..=)

Weird..

2007-01-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

My face was blushing the whole day, i really don't know why..
hahs! i'm not sick or anything, it just blushed.
weird eyy!

Anyways, started off my day late (to me).
Woke up at 9am, watched tv, had breakfast n blabla..
Then, studied in the afternoon. Didn't study much though cos my headache attack me again! tating uhh! blearghh!

ok.. So, this week is really crucial as all the revision will be taking place so i won't wanna miss anything. After that, it will be all mugging for me as i really need to buck up like REAL BAD!

oooh btw, i'm liking my new skin! wakaka!